Thank you all for your love and support and all of the many many prayers. God is listening as witnessed in this hospital last night.
As you know, Vittoria went into surgery yesterday afternoon around 2pm. The transition to the new machine happened without a hitch. She is getting enough oxygen with her own lungs. All went pretty well except the bleeding in that little coronary artery that has been the problem all along. They couldn't get it to stop. The more they tried, the less they had to work with. After many hours, around 9pm, the surgeon came to speak to us. He explained everything in great detail and let us know that there was nothing they could do. He would basically return to the OR and close her up, bring her back to the ICU and let us share the last few hours with her before she passed.
We gathered the family and a few friends that were here at the time. Words cannot express the flood of emotion you feel of hopelessness and deep, deep sorrow. I cannot tell you how many time I hit my knees, pleading and praying for some type of understanding, of comfort, of peace. I felt that peace. I believe as a person passes that a veil is lifted and we are very close to heaven. I experienced it when my grandmother passed away and we were all at her bed-side. I thought that was what I was feeling. We knelt as a family and prayed. We waited for what seemed an eternity. Val screamed at one point that she cannot plan a funeral for her baby girl... I don't know what is worse, losing a child or knowing that you are about to lose a child.
They brought Vittoria back to the ICU. The nurse came to get us in the conference room they let us borrow to gather the family. She was smiling. We all thought that it was a little inappropriate. Val and I went back to be with our baby girl... Everyone was happy! Strange... One of the doctors explained that the surgeon had an idea to give it one last ditch effort and miraculously succeeded for the most part. It wasn't perfect but it was holding. The surgeon later came and explained that he had basically created a badminton basket looking thing out of some type of repair material to hold things in place. It was working...
Things are not perfect, but when are they in the ICU? Vittoria is holding her own for the time being. There are some clots that formed in her pump circuit. That is a dangerous thing. The tide could change at any moment. Our only hope is that a heart becomes available... and soon!
We are fighting. Vittoria is fighting. God is blessing her with a little while longer. It may be a long road... a short road... If only we could know. Right now we will love her and be by her side and pray.
I have learned to pray like I have never prayed before. We all have. It is impossible and sometimes inappropriate to share what has happened to me as I have prayed for my little princess. I know God is there and that sweet Vittoria is in his hands. I am not sure what his plan is for her, but I do know that our Heavenly Father does know us and especially her. His spirit is here in this hospital with us and so many of these precious kids and their families. Keep praying for our little Vittoria!